God changes us from the inside out, and we live the rest of our lives knowing we are here for a reason.
If you don't read the Bible or if you are overtaken by fear and emotion so much that the Word can't penetrate your heart, you will feel exhausted and lack power.
It is easy to try to rely on something as tangible as money for security. What are times in your life when you have faced guilt or regret, and relied on wealth or money, rather than turning to God for forgiveness?