The idea of control gives us the illusion that we can prevent, manage, and will our lives towards certain outcomes.
The longer you do something, the easier it becomes to forget why you started doing it. This can happen to us with Christianity. If you have a seared conscience, these steps will help your heart heal.
God loves us and he guides us through discipline and training, just like a father who cares deeply for his children. How and where is God guiding your life?