One of the most amazing things about having a relationship with God is he frees us up to be ourselves
The Bible teaches how to build confidence in God, not self.
Pray about your lack of trust in God. What areas of your life are you unwilling to trust God with, and how has this affected your desire to pray? How has it affected your desire to read your Bible?
No matter how great our talent or resources, insecurity ignored will undermine us all.